Happy Thursday, you guys. This is happening, I’m blogging this. I can’t help myself.
Very recently, I’ve been avoiding thinking about my wedding.
It’s not to say I don’t want anything to do with it. Or that I’m questioning my relationship.
I can thankfully count neither of those as being what’s at issue for me. It’s wedding planning decision-making that’s giving me my trouble. I’ve recently entered a (so far, brief) stage of *if I ignore the decision I have to make, then I can freeze time and the date won’t just creep up on me.* Like hitting the pause button on planning for few seconds.
Unfortunately, that’s rubbish. I’m not British so actually I don’t know what that means or if it’s conveying my message. What I’m saying is you can’t do that–you can’t press pause when you’ve started as much as we have. But anyway, I’m discovering that it’s a sort of stagnant comfort zone that I’m trying to claw my way out of right now. I’m just feeling a pressure, probably self-imposed, to make decisions about my wedding, and to make them now. So if you thought that wedding bloggers are the best equipped to put on their own weddings, I’d offer that we may have the industry relationships but we also have no shortage of inspiration from which to draw, plus the (also probably self-imposed, but at least also partially real) pressure of having a *good one* given the career we – the career I – have chosen. Please understand that I’m not trying to complain, I’m not trying to come off that way, at all. I’m sort of just venting off steam that I’ve been hesitant all along to mention publicly, on the blog. Which meant, naturally, that I had to mention it on the blog.
No matter who you are, the process of planning a wedding, especially when you work full-time, is overwhelming, mentally.
Do any of you have trouble making decisions, and having them stick?
In other more positive news, since I don’t want to be a Debbie Downer 100% of the way through…
I’m also pretty happy right now because Monday thru Tuesday of next week, Trump SoHo ‘SoHi’ Hotel is putting me up gangsta style for a blogger event that’s kind of the best possible experience ever if you’re a girl. And while I usually have a rule about not showing people my vagina until at least the second time we’ve hung out or done business, I’ve taken exception this time around; in fact I’ve signed up in advance for the privilege of showing them my wahoo.
Let me explain, the reason for this is I’m taking advantage of the various amazing spa treatments they offer, which include bikini sugar waxing (yay! but also yikes!), an organic spray tan (my first EVER spray tan, of which I’m frightened), a massage, and various other stuff with a common denominator of head-to-toe nudity. You only live once, right? Career-ending nude photos released, schmameer-schmending schmude schmotos shmeshmeased. AMIRITE, people?
I feel like one of those bachelorette girls during her Fantasy Suite Card date, and how they feel like they have to act all “I don’t normally get naked on the first date, but anyway here’s my hoohaa.”
So in an effort to avoid having to PLAN ANYTHING ELSE WEDDING RELATED for a second, I was dreaming a little bit about that, and about how there’s this dress-picking-out factor I’m going to tell you guys about later on… and it got me thinking. It has to do with my wedding dress. I got to thinking about how I’ve been obsessing over a certain couture collection recently, so much so, that it’s my entire wedding dress inspiration folder.
So this is sort of a, “WHY HAVEN’T I SHARED A POST ABOUT MY WEDDING DRESS BEFORE NOW” kinda deal. Because given my overwhelmed state of mind about the wedding and all, I am so intrigued to hear your feedback about the dress styles I’ve got my eye on, and whether you think I’m on a good path.
It’s Valentino 2012, by the way. That’s taken over my dress folder. Formerly *Top Secret* personal dress folder. But heck, what’s the point of keeping inspiration to yourself?
So, thumbs up on my direction with what I’m hoping to find in my wedding dress?
Also, do you/did you have a little collection of dress inspiration for your wedding? Or, how’s the dress search coming along? And all the other little details, for that matter?
xoxo - Alison